I FEEL BAD, BUT GOOD BECAUSE IT'S OVER. TTT I NEED ANSWERS?

I gave him his ring back, yes I did. Friday I went off on him, there's no way I'm going to just sit here and go through what I'm going through and you not care no way. Well I've tried to talk to him, well let me rephrase that I have talk to him, and still nothing. He puts everything first before Me and the kids and I can't deal with it no more. I could see him not paying attention to me; but when you just close my kids out then we have a problem. I told him he was a dead beat I hit him with medicine in his face. I didn't want it to go there but that's where he took me. It would of been 8 years With this man in August and we were suppose to get married on are anniversary, but things are just not going that direction. He quit his job and don't even want to go to school and I can't force him so being though I want something out of life I told him I was leaving him and I'm taking my girls with me. But I'm hurting because once you get use to something for so long it's hard to just let go like that, but I don't want to be with anyone who don't want nothing out of life. I'm confuse I love him I do, but the things that come out his mouth reminds me that we are not getting along and that we are broking up. Things won't ever change, I need to just forget about him I need some advice will someone help me